Williams: “Yes, I really want to change.”

Detailed case narrative

Williams, 18-years-old, studied in school until the 6th grade. In our first session, he indicated that he wanted to work on his negative and painful emotions: “I would really like to go back home, but I feel threatened because I got involved with bad people, and now I feel sad and regret it because I have lost all opportunities. I wanted to die, and I have lots of headaches.” He said that he knew that he had done “wrong things,” and had made mistakes, but he wanted to change his life, and go back home to his family. “I want to study again; I want to be someone in life.” He feels worried and anxious.

He elaborated and said, “I smoked marihuana and sometimes I smuggled it, too. A colleague, his mother and step-father were murdered so that I had to run away, because someone wants to kill me, too. That’s the reason I ran away and went to live in the streets.”

Essences selected: California Poppy , Arnica and Lavender , 4 drops 4 times a day

Second session

Williams said, “I’ve been having good dreams, but also nightmares. In my dreams, my friend (the murdered one) asks me what happened, he advises me to watch out, because a guy had been murdered. I think it is a kind of warning. Is there any flower essence to open my mind? Mine is so closed.”

When asked if he felt any changes due to the flower essences he said that there was a general improvement but it was subtle, and difficult to describe. But he said, “I can control myself better. I’m less aggressive, and I don’t care about anything else anymore. But, I don’t think I’m doing the right thing here at the Farm. The affliction I feel is because I gave up school and because I can’t go back home.”

Williams is traumatized and scared, and he fears for his family. His mother is not living with his father any longer; she has been living somewhere else. His father has also moved to a different place. He is afraid of his dreams. He used a whole bottle of essences in less than 15 days.

Regardless, it seems that things are becoming more clear to him, everything is still in a mess, but now he realizes he made mistakes and what he has lost. He can think better.

California Poppy is helping him to concentrate, to realize that drugs would not do him any good and it also helps develop a sense of responsibility toward himself; his perception is growing

Arnica is healing the trauma and the energetic-emotional breakdown and also helping in his recovery

Lavender helps him relax, because he felt nervous, in an excited state, and he usually has headaches

Essences selected: California Poppy , Arnica , Lavender , Star Tulip , Dogwood , Sweet Chestnut

I suggested Williams take 4 drops of the essence 4 times a day, but I believe he takes it more often, because the last formula was finished in 12 days.

Third session

Williams states, “I’m fine, or better, I’m okay.”

I observe that he is distracted; he was doing well, but I think he is experiencing a “healing crisis.” The teachers told me that he has been answering some questions rudely, provocatively, and also he is aggressive with other teenagers. I notice that when he goes away, he gives up taking the essences for a while. But he usually starts taking them again.

California Poppy is helping him to concentrate, to realize that the drugs don’t do him any good and to have responsability for himself

Arnica is healing the traumas and also the energetic-emotional breakdown, helping in his recovery

Lavender helps him relax, because he is nervous, in an excited state, and he has headaches

Star Tulip helps him understand his dreams and to listen to himself

Dogwood helps him to be in harmony, and not to be so hard and strict towards himself

Sweet Chestnut helps him to get rid of his sadness and find ways do get over the crisis

Essences selected: California Poppy , Arnica , Lavender , Star Tulip , Dogwood , Sweet Chestnut , and Saguaro . I added Saguaro to help him have respect for older people, teachers, and authorities.

I assume he is not taking the essences the way he used to at first; his cycle of finishing them is slower.

Fourth session

Williams says, “I would like an essence which calms people.”

Williams appears lonesome, “far off,” he only turns up when I’m leaving, putting away the materials used that day. It seems to me that he is experiencing an internal crisis.

I noticed that he understood that the essences are working well; I am not sure if he is afraid of the effects of them or if some transformation in perception is occuring. I always wait a period of time so it can happen; it usually gets better after some weeks.

Essences selected: Saguaro , Chamomile , Indian Pink , Lavender , Deerbrush , Love-Lies-Bleeding , Buttercup , Calendula

Fifth session

Williams states , “I can keep control of myself and my feelings. I’m more courageous and confident, trying to get back what I‘ve wasted, that being my time. It would be very good if I could do military service or do a computer course.”

Williams seems to be truthful and he appears to be living in present time. Despite his problems, he has decided to to leave behind his current situation. He seems to be really decisive.

He is more confident, secure; he presents more clarity and purpose. I really believe he is saying the truth. He is very intelligent and has a great spiritual sensibility. He wants to regain his dignity.

Saguaro helped him respect elders, teachers, and authorities; his behavior is much better toward the teachers.

Chamomile helped him control his emotions and helped him to relax; giving him more serenity and quietness

Indian Pink is helping him with the anguished feeling brought about by his situation; it allowed him to feel calm and guided

Lavender is also helping him to be calm

Deerbrush gave him better understanding of his actions and thoughts; this essence was very important in relation to honesty

Love-Lies-Bleeding helped him to get rid of his depression and anguish

Buttercup helped him to be more self-confident

Calendula , which in fact he chose himself, helps him be polite; he is very polite when we meet each other, whereas before, the teachers informed me, he spoke rudely to the other teenagers

I gave him the same formula again.

Sixth session

Williams said that he had gone home the last weekend. “I noticed that I’ve changed, because I made a cake, and when I woke up the next day, someone had eaten all of it. Before the flower essences, I’d have had another reaction: I would have reacted badly and fought; I realized that I didn’t care that the cake had been eaten. My little sister was the person who ate it all, but she is a child, and I’m not anymore.”

Further Williams said, “I think that I could be someone else. I could have another destiny, I feel I’m very “late,” I want to speed my evolution, get back what I wasted. I want to change my life, I want to define what my life will be like; I’ll be an adult and I want to be a citizen. I want to finish my studies and find a formal job, I want to work. I think my dad is a bit afflicted, because he thinks that he is running at risk. He is afraid of that. I don’t know what the community thinks of me. It’s difficult to live in reality, I’m still living in the flame of illusion. The reality I talk about is having a normal home, to live normally. I remember when my grandma told me: ‘Williams, be careful with your friends!’ I’ve never carried a gun, people said that I was mugging with a knife in the railway. It is a lie. I only broke down and was a pickpocket, stealing wallets and cell phones.”

Williams is quiet. He speaks confidently and he is trustful. Now, he has clearer goals, he has more lucidity, living in present time, and is determined to recover the wasted time, as he himself says.

Saguaro helped him to respect the older ones and traditions

Chamomile helped to control his emotions and helped him to relax; it gave him more serenity and quietness

Indian Pink brought concentration and focus, and he left behind anguish; he has very clear thoughts; it seems to me that his concepts are better defined

Lavender helps him be at peace

Deerbrush gave him more clarity in relation to his actions and thoughts

Love-Lies-Bleeding helped him to get over depression and anguish

Buttercup helped him be more self-confident

Calendula helped to increase his sensitivity to listen and speak, bringing him more tenderness in his process

Essences selected:
Scotch Broom, California Wild Rose, Sweet Pea, Blackberry,California Poppy, Lavander, Deerbrush

Seventh session

Williams states, “Yes, I really want to change. Deep inside of me, I feel that every little thing can be all right, it depends only on me. I’ll start a computer course; I want to be a specialist. I’m more positive and I believe in it. I can control myself better; I talk to myself and set the right path. I have more patience with myself. Now, I know that nothing is forever, and that what I’ve been passing through is just a phase in my life. I keep busy more often, filling my mind with good things, doing activities; I have this entire gap to fill and develop.

“I really wish to go back home. The barrier is an illusion that I will get over. I want to leave here changed and accomplish my goals. I want to do well at school, and get good marks. I want to stay at home on my holidays. I want to take the money I earn here home to buy food if it’s necessary.“

Now, Williams has clear objectives, a lot of clarity, and he is determined to recover the time wasted, as he himself said.

He started a computer course, and is very happy. As he is so intelligent, he is going to develop all his potential quite quickly. It is exactly what he needed; he had to decide what he wanted to do. Now, I’m sure that he is going to move toward a more enlightened path; I really think that he will be able to have a very promising future.

Essences selected: Scotch Broom , California Wild Rose , Sweet Pea , Blackberry , California Poppy , Lavender , Deerbrush